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Idiot's Guide to Dating by Simon Riley
John "Soap" MacTavish x Simon "Ghost" Riley
this is part six, the final chapter!! read on ao3, or on tumblr - read the others parts here - part one, part two, part three, part four, part five. no warnings apply! this is wholehearted fluff, baby.
The Ghost didn’t get giddy. He was a trained soldier who had slaughtered many people, and who could kill without even a second thought. There was no reason for him to get giddy – there was only room for mindless killing. He was a wolf, kept on a leash that he could pull free from if he chose to, but for now, remained complacent.
Simon Riley, however, very much so did get fucking giddy, apparently.
It felt so stupid, how excited he was for this date. He’d barely been able to focus the entire day, distracted by Johnny’s eager smile, or how his lips felt against his, or, god forbid, his accent and how much he liked it. Never had he been so pleased about his reputation for being quiet, and hostile when interrupted, because it did allow him to stew in his thoughts. A conscious effort was made to not walk around with a smile, because the mask did hide it, but the happy look in his eyes was not lost, and he refused to lose some of his reputation by acting like a fool.
It was a close thing, however. Every time he ran into Soap, it took everything within him to not smile (and sometimes, he just couldn’t bring himself to resist).
Never had he been so grateful for a relatively quiet and quick day, and soon, he was waiting in his room for Johnny. That had been a challenge in of itself, because he then had to think of an outfit to wear, and he didn’t… know what you wore on dates?
People wore fancy clothes, but it was also just Soap.
Would Soap want him to get dressed up, or would he just want him as he was?
He allowed himself a moment to flop onto his bed, bury his head into his pillow, and let out a frustrated groan. Dating was so much more complicated than he thought it would be. Even with his incredible plan finished, all that was revealed was that there was so much more to it than he’d thought.
After regaining his wits, he walked over to his wardrobe. There wasn’t… much in variety, admittedly. Before this, he hadn’t ever really needed it. Most of his clothes were practical, some there just for comfort, like the long hoodies he’d had for years and years, now. An old, frayed hoodie didn’t seem quite like dating clothes, as tempting as the comfort sounded. Then again, nor did the shirts, mostly there for practicality, used for missions. Once again, he’d never regretted just having normal clothes before now.
Resisting the urge to go and yell into his pillow once more, he rooted around in his wardrobe, determined to find something. Surely, he had some ‘date outfit’, tucked away somewhere.
Miracles were real, apparently, because he found exactly what he was looking for before. Tucked away into the corner of his wardrobe, forgotten and old, was a simple black button-up. To most people, it probably wasn’t the most formal thing, but for him, it was just about perfect.
Quickly, he shucked his shirt and put it on, uncovering the mirror in his bathroom just to peer at himself with it on. He looked… nice? It was clear he was unused to looking this way, his shoulders a little tensed up, uncomfortable, but the shirt fit him well. It wasn’t too tight, but it was tight enough that his muscles were shown off, and it fit well around his arms. When he rolled up the sleeves, his tattoos complimented it, oddly enough.
With one half of the outfit down, he only had the other half to go.
Another longing shot was sent at the pillow.
For his bottom half, it didn’t take as long, which he was thrilled about. He settled for a simple pair of black jeans – he knew the Scot was going to mock him for being all grim and dark, but he had no idea how to match an outfit, in his defense, and if he spent any longer trying to find the right clothes, Soap would arrive.
The finishing touch on the outfit was the shoes, which were simple boots because he didn’t really own any normal shoes. Of course, there was the mask, too – he put a simple face mask in his jean pocket, in case he felt comfortable enough wearing that. For now, he still wore the balaclava, but he had a feeling Johnny wouldn’t mind that.
It was a lucky thing he finished getting dressed when he did, as Johnny arrived mere moments later, knocking on his door, and drawing him from his thoughts. He waited for him to answer, not stepping in. The subtle sign of respect was appreciated.
Stepping over to the door, he felt his heart racing, like a kid with his first crush – and, for once, he didn’t shove that feeling away. That feeling increased tenfold when he opened the door.
There Johnny stood, in all his usual glory, but so much better, like this. His mohawk was slicked back, and he wore a simple white shirt, one that clung tight to him, and showed off his muscles. He wore black jeans – fuck, they looked like skinny jeans, and they showed off muscled thighs, too. Then, he wore simple trainers.
It took everything within Simon not to pull him into his room then and there. Fuck the date, they could be doing something far more interesting-
No. He was going to do this right. Johnny deserved that.
“Lookin’ good, Lt,” Johnny grinned, widely, not hiding the way his eyes scanned him up and down.
“Simon.”
“Eh?”
“Call me Simon tonight?” He hadn’t even met to say the words, and Simon had no idea where they came from, but he refused to take it back.
“Okay, Simon,” The pleased smile that quirked Johnny’s lips made Simon immediately want to crumble. It was so unfair, how nice he looked. How handsome he was. He was the perfect mix of handsome and pretty, and he regretted not doing this sooner.
“C’mon,” Simon carefully nudged his way past Soap, then, deciding they should get a start on the evening before he just ended up staring at Johnny in his room the whole night. Whilst that still sounded nice, he wanted it to be perfect. For Soap’s sake.
Through the halls, he led him, pleased he’d picked this time for it. There wasn’t anybody around, thanks to most people being in the canteen, and it meant that they weren’t forced to deal with any conversation. It was great. Soap rambled as they walked, and Simon simply allowed himself to enjoy the sound of his voice. He allowed him to take charge of the conversation, occasionally offering input, but mostly letting him talk. Soap had a nice voice, and he may never admit that, but he had an inkling he already knew that.
They ended up outside, and Johnny blinked as he led them to the garage, surprised to be taken off base, but not against it, necessarily. That surprise was only furthered when Simon stopped at a motorbike and was taking out two helmets.
Amusement danced across Simon’s features at the dumbfounded expression upon his features, putting his own helmet on, before offering one to Johnny.
“You - ah – motorbike?” He asked, smartly.
“I motorbike,” Simon answered, simply because he was an asshole. “Can drive in your car, if you want. Don’t have one on base,”
“No!” Soap scrambled to say, “This is perfect! I just… I’ve never… been on one?”
Ghost was thankful his mask covered up the grin that split his lips. Johnny had been a lot of his firsts, entirely by accident – first boyfriend, first date, the first person he’d put this much effort into caring for, etc – it only made him that much more thrilled to give him a first, too. It was only fair, of course.
He moved closer, pleased at the way Johnny instinctively stilled, and helped put his own helmet on. Part of it was an excuse to get closer to him, but part of it was simply to make sure it was on correctly. “Might mess up your hair, sorry,”
“Knew you liked my hair,”
A huff escaped Ghost, but he didn’t deny it. When he finished putting the helmet on, he pulled back and gave him a little pat on the head. He returned to the saddlebag and pulled out two leather jackets – okay, maybe he’d planned this out in advance during the day, but in his defense, he wanted it to be perfect. He was confident in his skills as a driver – at least on a motorbike, cars were a different story – but he wanted Soap to be as safe as possible.
That and, well, a base part of him roared in delight at the thought of Johnny wearing his clothes.
Once both wore their jackets, he got onto the bike and patted behind him. Soap stared at him, for a moment, before he could see the formations of a smile curling his lips. He settled behind him, and wrapped his arms around his waist, settling close – far closer than anybody other than Soap would dare.
Ensuring the other knew that it was fine, he patted his hands, before switching the bike on, smiling privately as he heard the roar of the engine. Despite the loudness of it, it reassured him, somehow.
As he began to drive, he felt Soap tense, clearly a little anxious, so he made sure not to go too fast, not wanting to push it. The further they drove, however, the more relaxed he got, until, as they drove down an empty road, Johnny let his head tilt back, and he let out a pleased whoop.
Simon pushed it a bit more, after that, but not too fast, not wanting to risk anything. He simply wanted Johnny to enjoy himself, and it became clear that he was.
They did arrive at their destination reasonably soon, though, and Simon could feel when the other realized where they were going, as his arms tightened around him excitedly. That giddy feeling from earlier arose once more, tenfold.
He parked up, and as soon as the rumble of the engine stopped, Johnny was excitedly talking. “Simon Riley, you sweet bastard! I knew you were already, but fuck, this is adorable! C’mon! I wanna go!” He stood up off the bike, and Simon let out a quiet laugh before joining him.
Soap’s excited rambling continued as they took their helmets and jackets off, storing them away once more. Once done, Simon began to lead him toward their date location for the night.
When he’d been beginning the list, he’d scoured the internet for ideas of where to go. Most of them had been cliché in a way that made him uncomfortable – restaurants and things of the like. This had the perfect mix of people, but alone time; it was a fair. One of those that traveled around the country, setting up at different times, and when he’d given it some thought, he’d decided that it was perfect.
The music was a little bit overstimulating, but Johnny’s enthusiasm made up for just about everything else, honestly. He would go into war for that smile – though was happy that he didn’t have to, for now.
Before they got too close, Simon slipped his balaclava off and switched it out for a simple face mask. It only covered the lower half of his face, and usually, it would overwhelm him beyond measure – and, in fairness, it did, initially. That discomfort was immediately assuaged when he reached closer and pressed his hand into Johnny’s. Like this, he could take on the world.
The simple action was enough for Soap to pause his rambling to look over at him, and the love that shone in his eyes when he spotted the switch of masks was enough to reaffirm his decision entirely. His pupils blew a little wider, and the grin turned into a fond smile, and, shit, it was taking everything within Simon not to kiss the shit out of him right then and there.
“Keep going, MacTavish,” There was a joking warning tone in Simon’s voice, though it was very clear he didn’t mean it. It made Soap chuckle, so he decided it was entirely worth it.
They spent a lot longer at the fair than Simon ever intended, but he adored every single moment. He insisted on paying for everything, claiming that it was his date idea, and Johnny only relented when he said that next time, he would be paying. He would allow anything for a second date, so of course he nodded his assent.
Soap insisted they go around each shitty fairground ride, and Simon, certain, now, he couldn’t deny him anything, agreed. He found out that Soap had an affinity for the waltzer, but also loved the twister, mostly because he was flung into Simon’s side, every time.
Hell, he even insisted they do some of the kid’s attractions – things like hook-a-duck – after Simon offhandedly mentioned that he had never been to the fair before. It had been a little embarrassing, especially when she eyed Simon with clear confusion at the man with a skull mask intently focused on winning his partner a prize.
It was so worth it when he got him a stupid little teddy bear, because Soap’s face lit up, and he’d give him the world if he asked, just to get him to look like that.
Hours flew by, and surprisingly, Simon loved all of it. It was only towards the end that he started to get uncomfortable, but he pushed through it, for Johnny’s sake. It wasn’t too much longer until he felt the same way, though, and they found some food before they found a spot to settle down in. They both grabbed a cheeseburger each and found some of those warm doughnuts that Soap informed him were a staple of the fair. He took his word for it, but he told him they would be buying some anyway.
They found a spot to settle down in, a place away from the main park area, and though it was getting dark, they were illuminated enough to be comfortable. The grass was a little wet, making it a little uncomfortable, but he felt too good to care much about it. They were far enough away from people that he felt content taking his mask off, knowing that nobody could probably see them – that and, well, he had to eat. Even he couldn’t figure out how to eat through the mask.
This time, they settled into a comfortable silence, and Simon moved to wrap an arm around his shoulder and hold him. Everything felt perfect – he slotted into his side perfectly, like he was made for it.
Maybe he was…
Once they finished eating their burgers, they moved on to their doughnuts, and – oh, shit, Johnny was right. These were fucking perfect. And now, the taste would remind him of a perfect moment. Simon Riley was a secret sap, apparently. Or, more likely, it was just one of many things Soap brought out for him.
Halfway through eating, Simon gasped, suddenly remembering something. He checked his phone, then smiled in excitement.
“There are fireworks in two minutes,” he mumbled in Johnny’s ear, careful to let him know. Given how loud they were, and what they sounded like, it was only fair he knew.
Once more, Simon realized just how much he would do to see Soap smile like that again. It reached his eyes, making them crinkle in the corners prettily, and they showed off white teeth, and his hair was a little scruffy thanks to the rides they’d been on, and – well, shit, he couldn’t resist kissing him, now.
One of his hands reached up to cup the smaller man’s cheek, and he leaned down to kiss him once more. He tasted of burgers, doughnuts, and sugar, and it was entirely perfect. His eyes fell shut, and he did his best to commit the taste of Johnny into his brain. He’d never get enough of this – to be honest, he thought he might be addicted.
Might as well keep it up, just to figure out the answer, right?
When he pulled back, it was only because his lungs were begging for oxygen, and though he would happily drown in Soap, he didn’t think the other would allow him that. It was the perfect time to do so, though, because, as soon as he did, the fireworks started up. It made him startle, then relax, immediately, and both turned to look at them.
Unable to resist, and more than happy to indulge, Simon once more tugged Johnny into his side. His hand moved to hold his, and at that moment, he decided that maybe the world wasn’t so bad.
Both were quiet as they watched, though Simon’s eyes were fixed on the fireworks – Johnny's eyes were fixed on him. For a man who had lived the life he did, it took a startling amount of time for him to realize what he was doing.
“Hm?” Simon asked, suddenly feeling a little confused.
“I love you,”
Simon’s heart stopped, and his eyes went wide.
“Shite! I mean – fuck, I really like you, and you don’t have to say anything back, and – I don’t wanna ruin whatever this is, I’m sorry, Simon, I-”
The word vomit was cut off by lips on his, once more. Johnny had gone tense, but slowly but surely relaxed into the kiss yet again.
“It’s okay,” the words didn’t feel like enough, but he knew he wasn’t ready yet to say it back. One day, he would. But for now, the words just couldn’t come out of his mouth.
It seemed, as usual, that Johnny understood his silent meaning, and smiled softly at him. “You don’t have to say it back, I just want you to know. I love you, Simon Riley,” he said, pressing a kiss to his cheek, and settling back in so they could watch the fireworks.
Simon hesitated, then squeezed his hand three times, and rested his head on top of his. Only one thought had crossed his mind, at that moment – he'd officially and thoroughly dated the shit out of John MacTavish. He knew he could do it.
#simon ghost riley#john soap mactavish#soapghost#ghostsoap#ghoap#call of duty#Idiot's Guide to Dating by Simon Riley#im a little sad to finish it LMAO#i have a sequel planned#but still#this is my baby#my little child#writing this was so fun#and also made me giddy asf LOL#i hope u all enjoyed it as much as i did
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Three CaitVi fics I've read over the holigays
be but sworn my love (E) by antant616
This fic is literally the trope of: slow burn but they're fucking the entire time. Also, CaitVi here are exes who are forced to play Romeo and Juliet in a play and ooooo the drama! I'm HOOKED.
Dear Stranger, (T) by becasbelt | tumblr
If you want to cry, read this. Absolutely beautiful canon-compliant fic. And for real, just read all of Anne's works. They're amazing ❤️
lucid dreams ‘bout you (M) by rosetattoos
Oh GOD I've never been so happy to see an update for a fic before. The last time this librarian!cait fic updated was like two years ago, and I gave up waiting for it. But lo and behold, what a GIFT for the holidays!!
#personal tag#caitvi#read them yall READ THEM NOW#my backlog is so long its never ending and thats such a good problem lol#IVE ONLY READ SO LITTLE FICS DURING THE HOLIDAYS IM SO SAD#but these three are special to me i love them so much!!!!!!!!#also yeah im an AU enjoyer sue me lol#please give all our lovely writers some love!!!!!!#CAN YOU GUYS BELIEVE WE HAVE OVER 11k CAITVI FICS???? I CANT#we are so lucky#also no gifsets for a bit! im kinda burnt out making things so much and wanna enjoy doing other stuff for the meantime#like trying to finish all my backlogs of caitvi fics lmao#maybe a few days? idk we'll see
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maybe the real voltron was the friends we made along the way
#so i finished. feels like they did not put a lot of thought into shiro or hunk's epilogue lmfao#overall i dont think it was Bad. it could have been better yknow. but again. it feels like they just needed a little extra time to breathe#in development. it's just bones.#i do think perhaps some of the criticisms i have seen of it are just from people pissing on the poor#i could fix her!!! ough i really do want to rewrite this sdnfksjfd but that would unfortunately require. having to watch this again#and i cant do that in 24 hours#im so sad this is disappearing. this is the only show for which i ever stayed up for the midnight PST release#back when only season 1 and maybe 2? were out i used to watch them constantly. sometimes in spanish to practice#like i wouldnt have ever finished without the threat of it leaving but this is the worst timing to reawaken my affection for it lmao#grateful for it. wish i hadnt waited so long#i did need time to forget the insanity tho bc if i had made myself keep going and finish at the time#it would have poisoned the ending i think. nice to finally watch those last 4-5 episodes with a fresh perspective#but at the same time this is How Many Years ive missed out on being able to talk about it lmao#maybe there is a renaissance. idk i havent looked into it too much but i guess i should now huh#we'll see if things are any different or if it's just the same shit i got tired of the first time around#but anyway. the show is still fun and i enjoyed it for the most part. very sad to see it go#mine#voltron
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石榴
#cosmodynes art#illustration#ffxiv#ff14#emet-selch#hades ffxiv#hythlodaeus#hythemet#hythades#it says pomegranate#a little on the nose for hades#but w/e lmao i like it#anyways if you wanted to read#about pomegranate seeds and--#ok no i wont finish that sentence#there is no pomegranate emoji#im sad about that
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OC INTRODUCTION ❣ ELIOTT EMBERS
BASIC INFORMATION
full name ✒️ Eliott Embers nicknames ✒️ ― species ✒️ human height ✒️ 182 cm age ✒️ 17 y/o birthday ✒️ 30.06 gender ✒️ cis male (he/him) sexuality ✒️ gay hometown ✒️ Queendom of Roses dorm ✒️ Cendrea (my Cinderella fandorm) class ✒️ N/A club ✒️ Home Economics favorite subject ✒️ animal linguistics dominant hand ✒️ left talent ✒️ doing house chores quickly hobby ✒️ watching tv shows, writing, collecting rocks favorite food ✒️ pumpkin soup least favorite food ✒️ anything made out of eggs pet peeve ✒️ people making a mess after he cleaned twisted from ✒️ Cinderella
PERSONALITY
Eliott is, first and foremost, good at finding the good side in almost every situation. His family treating him like a servant? Well, at least he's gaining a lot of skills that may be useful to him in adult life! His step-brother is fighting with him again? Maybe he can use their fights as an inspiration for dialogue in his next fanfic! Hope is the only thing he has, and he holds onto it as tightly as he can.
At home, where making himself be too noticed would probably do him more harm than good, Eliott is quiet and obedient ― he knows when to put his head down and bite his tongue, keeping the complaining to himself, and when to exit the scene. Away from home, though, he transforms completely. He's cheerful and full of energy. Even if he can sometimes be a bit awkward when talking to others, he's still very friendly (sometimes to the point of not knowing when to stop talking) and loves meeting new people. To make up for having to be quiet and calm at home, he often indulges in a bit of harmless chaos. He jokes around a lot, tends to pull little harmless pranks on people, and is not above a little rule breaking if he knows he won't get into too much trouble for it.
Amongst other Royal Sword Academy he has a reputation of being always willing to help others, though Eliott himself is not exactly proud of it ― he's not sure how much of it is the natural goodness of his heart, and how much is just a habit of agreeing to other people's demands without even thinking.
A dreamer at heart; he spends most of his time fantasising about the life he will lead once he moves out of his house or, better yet, completely strange worlds. Often times, he gets lost in his own fantasies, making him seem a little airheaded.
Signature Spell -> A Dream, A Wish ; It allows him to bring to life things he had written about, within certain limitations. For the thing to came out looking good and actually function as intended, he needs to describe it in as much detail as possible, and the bigger, more complicated the thing, the more magic it requires. Most of the things disappear after a some amount of time.
BACKSTORY
A leftover child ― that's what Eliott calls himself, usually when trying to make a joke about his situation. He never knew his mother; she died in childbirth. His father, trying to give his son a good life, remarried quickly, not noticing that his new wife seemed to be more concerned with his money than his son.
After Eliott's father died too while Eliott was still a young boy, his step-mother sold their house and their family moved into a more prestigious part of the town. His step-mother didn't hold too much affection for the son of her late husband, either leaving Eliott to take care of himself, or pushing him around to do whatever needed to be done at the house, and clearly favouring her biological child.
Growing up, Eliott quickly found ways to escape his situation. Sometimes ― quite literary, as he would start to spend more and more time at his friends' houses, his absence often unnoticed by his step-mother. Other times, he would escape into the world of fiction, devouring one tv show after another or, even better yet, discussing his favorite shows with people online.
RELATIONSHIPS
Grace Celestique [OC] ― Eliott's vice-housewarden and his senior, they basically adopted Eliott the moment they saw him. Eliot can see that despite Grace's usual silliness, they can often be pretty mature and he trusts them with helping him run the dorm well. He often comes to Grace for advice, and even without that, the two of them hang out a lot ― they simply compliment each other's chaotic energy quite well. Duncan Lawerence [OC] ― Eliott's freshman year roommate. At first Eliott was afraid that the two of them wouldn't get along, considering how cold and aloof Duncan was acting. Luckily, the two of them quickly bonded over their favorite tv show and now not only is Duncan a part of Eliott's closest friend group, the two of them have also co-authored a few fanfiction together. Allan Embers [OC] ― Eliott's younger step-brother. To say that the two of them never got along would be an understatement. Eliott was always jealous of Allan getting all the attention and support, while Allan, being the spoiled child, would often treat Eliott horribly just for the sake of it. Growing up, the two of them would either constantly fight or ignore each other for days. Now, with Eliott going to RSA and Allan going to NRC, their relationship seems more strained than ever. They simply don't talk to eachother at all, and during every interschool event, Allan seems to be avoiding his brother like the plague. Eliott isn't sure why Allan suddenly stopped picking on him and started to just ignore him the whole time, but he chooses to think of it as a blessing. That way, he can have some peace. Trey Clover ― Growing up in the same neighbourgood, the two of them quickly became friends. Not only did they spend hours playing together, Eliott would spend most of his free time at the Clover's house, adoring the atmosphere there. He very much sees Trey as an older brother figure, and even if they can't spend as much time together now, they still keep in contact and meet up as often, as they can. Che'nya ― The two of them are childhood friends as well, and they grew even closer after they both got into RSA and if Eliott is not spending time with the friends from his dorm, he's usually always with Che'nya. Separately, Eliott is almost a model student, but together with Che'nya, they're the staff's biggest headache, as Che'nya often happily enables Eliott's mischief seeking behaviours. ♡ Riddle Rosehearts ― They're both childhood friends and neighbours, as the new house Eliott's family moved into was next to the Rosehearts' house, with the windows to the boys' bedrooms being opposite eachother. Eliott would often see Riddle through the window and grew curious about the boy, readily taking the first chance to befriend him. Despite how different their temperaments were, they quickly grew close ― when they couldn't see each other anymore, they would exchange letters through their windows. Eliott didn't understand why after some time their friendship suddenly stopped altogether, with Riddle ignoring his letters, but he assumed he must have done something to make the boy upset. He missed his friend, but there was nothing he could've done about it, and with enough of his own problems, he didn't have the time to dwell on it. They only rekindled their friendship after Riddle's overblot; they slowly learn how to be friends again, often meeting up on the weekends or after school, if Riddle has the time.
TRIVIA
he's the housewarden of Cendrea. he took the position at the beginning of his sophomore year, after being chosen by a popular vote by his dorm mates at the end of the previous school year
Eliott is a passionate ― and a quite prolific ― fanfiction writer. he specialises in writing long-winded modern AUs for fantasy shows that may be bittersweet, but still always have a happy ending. he's not particularly shy about this interest of his and will happily show his works to whoever asks about it
his dream career is becoming a children's books author
while he is good at doing all the various house chores, he doesn't especially enjoy them
not only does he feed the mice living in his house, he also gives them names and talks to them as if they are his friends ― he's been doing it since he was a child
he has an old shoebox that he keeps under his desk, full of the rocks he collected on his walks
most of the time he stays at RSA during the winter and summer breaks
he doesn't like eggs because when he was younger, he often had to cook for himself and eggs were the easiest thing he could cook in different ways, so now he says after eating them so often, he got bored of them
he likes to wear baggy/oversized clothes
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#twisted wonderland#twst#twisted wonderland oc#twst oc#royal sword academy#royal sword academy oc#rsa oc#oc x canon#💌 lore#��️ eliott#woooooo!!! i finished all of this ealier than i expected!!! congrats me!!!#its funny because eliott and his ship with riddle live in my head a lot actually#and i have a whole backlog of writing for them#i just never post about them or about just eliott#mostly because i just really didnt like eliott's design#it was just so??? random????#past me had NO idea what i was doing#but i really like this one#ive decided to move some of the more overt cinderella references to his dorm uniform#which i'll post sometime soon#i just gave him the little pins on his sweater#also i decided to just. not give him the rsa uniform coat as i fucking /hate/ drawing it#so im just not going to do it <3#also ive ironed out some of the details about his character in general#not many major changes just kinda shuffled the importance of some stuff and changed some details a little#and now i really happy with him :D#also ive decided to make him even more tall#just to annoy riddle lmao#and YES i do love sad childhood best friends to lovers what about it
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ouaaaaaghhh i've been on a bit of a pokemon binge lately......... i should crack open my old pokemon games and take a peek at my teams :,) i wish i still had my old copy of conquest and black 2 though............ :(
#gu6chan's musings#im so sad because literally ALL my pokemon games i've had as a teen i still have#up to sun and moon which i got on christmas when i was NINETEEN lmao!!!#but yeah pokemon was technically my first fandom ig???? i used to watch my brother play pokemon yellow and crystal a lot when i was TINY#but i never ACTUALLY played pokemon or video games in general myself until my older sister surprised me with my first video game console#and video game when she came up from florida 😭 a black dsi with pokemon black; i was 13 and my dad HATED her for it like 'Why are you#giving her videogames??? she's a girl :/' BUT I HAD IT!!!! MY FIRST EVER POKEMON GAME THAT BELONGED TO MEEEEE#i loved the SHIT out of that game and then got black 2; soulsilver and platinum; pokemon conquest; got the 3ds games...#i still have platinum/soulsilver as well as all the mainline 3ds games i believe#but conquest; black; and black 2 i lost :( literally my FAVOURITES i took them everywhere with me (which is why i lost them lmao)#funny enough i know exactly where black 2 IS though; its in the pocket of a jacket i owned but lost back between 2013-2014???#if i find the jacket it will 100% be in there; i just couldn't find the jacket and tbh idek if its still around anymore or is in storage#but if it is!!!! i'll literally cry lmao#black 2 is where i got my first level 100 pokemon; a magneton....... i ADORED that little bastard ouaaaghh....#i dont believe i ever managed to get past the league in black 2 though bc i remember being so pissed i couldnt get to see the other side of#the map beyond castelia city lmao#14-15 years old and i STILL didn't believe in stat moves 😭 i deserved to get shot#But fun fact: I DID get a new copy of Black a few years back!!! only it 1. already had save data on it and 2. it was full of rare/hacked#legendaries young me could only ever DREAM of having so i can't get myself to restart the save data even though i rlly want to.......#oh but funny enough!!! i also still have the 14 y/o dsi i was gifted back then; it still works though the battery cover is missing so you#have to hold it lol#but aaaaa so many fond memories of playing black and black 2... black 2 especially since i never really got to finish it lol#like#i finished the main CAMPAIGN with plasma and ghetsis trying to fucking kill you and all that (Something which i remember being so :0!!!?!?!#when i first saw it omgggg its such a clear memory aaaa) but i think like#i got up to the league and could never beat it........ so i just went back to training my mons till i got a level 100 magneton lmao#so many good memories; i hope i can get copies of black 2 and conquest again someday...
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ready to admit i'm obsessed with bucky and buck. feral, gambler, drinking little yapper weirdo and his emotional support solemn as a statue where moss grows despite itself poster boy for 40s dream man i love you
#i know you're a sad little man major buck you cant hide from me#also OBSESSED with the fact that gale is *recorded* to have said 'im just a baby'. yes you are baby im putting you in my pocket#so weird to experiment main ship for once..... there's so much of them.... i dont have to look for them in the background of each scene....#i dont even know what to do with myself#i wont switch to a mota blog but i enjoy they i finished it on monday and im already rewatching it LMAO
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i didn't post my spotify wrapped yesterday!! ive finally broke my curse of my top artist never having a song in my top 5
i did split like 4 months this year with apple music again but i think it's accurate overall just some places moved a bit, from lastfm the last 5 artists rounding out my top 10 are nerd connection, woodz, kai, lexie liu, and glen check!
perfume - nct dojaejung
magician - lexie liu
kitsch - ive
save me, kill me - cix
spicy - aespa
honestly i think my soty is actually my number 6 song this year, it's maybe i'm lonely - rachel chinouriri
omg last year i didn't get any artist messages but i was scammed because i was supposed to get one from seventeen at least but this year i got 13 and i love the format of them telling you ur top song by them too after the message that was really cute
i recorded it all because i always record my wrapped now but the messages were from ive, txt, p1harmony, aespa, glen check (i was so surprised both at the fact that they're one of my top artists but also that they made a video asjkfhsdf), dpr ian, enhypen, tinashe, ateez, rachel chinouriri, taemin, cix, stayc
#i might do a songs recap at the end of the year i sort of did one last year but i never finished it#i only posted the mid month and i have the year end one in my drafts that's half filled lmao#lexie liu debuting in my top songs chart just like day6 when they were dethroned as my top artist it's my tradition#i did cheat a little because i really wanted magician to be on there since her album was a dec 2022 release#and i mainly streamed on apple music at the time so i added back into my rotation to make sure but i prob didnt need to!#i don't listen enough to change my stuff last minute i guess so im just happy i got enough streams for a taemin message#my top song for him is criminal at number 93 like omg but i've been listening to his new mini album like crazy#nov has been a huge month for me music wise im sad it doesn't show up at all :((#was there any other interesting things..oh! i also liked how they told you what month was ur top one with ur top 5#that was cute and also my sound town or whatever they called it was seoul it just listed my k-indie artists lol
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soul when heart and mind start fighting again
#im bored n was looking through my gallery n i saw this#i dont know#i hope everyone is having a good night#or day whatever the time zone is for u#anyways im working on a little comic thing but well see if i actually finish it#its a heart and mind sibling bonding comic#i have two panels out of like eleven done#ill try to actually finish it instead of abandoning it like i do with other drawing lmao#its totally a happy comic#no sad just happy#wink wink#:)
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what we usually finish by 9-10 at work i just finished up a few minutes after my shift ended at 2:30
#there was only 2 of us working#got a couple people to help us and still barely made it#i do always get sad when we finish at 9 bc its fun like obvi its stressful doing it til the last second but its fun#and i like when its what we do all day#i didnt even take my second 15 min break i was too focused on doing my little grocery runs lmao#on Tuesday imma talk to my supervisor ab moving to full time#i know we just moved into where we are but i have been looking at little 1br places just thinkin ab the future#i couldn't afford much even at full time but#its fun 2 imagine#ooc.#im so tired but we r confirmed going 2 barbie tonight
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If you see the final word count for my completed fic gently increasing over months and months no you dont
#i have realised that the ‘fast n loose’ method for churning out a fic doesnt work for me actually#i am so sad that so much of that fic was skipped- or told and not shown- or brushed over in favour of me forcing it out quickly#i know i did it for a good reason- that if i took my time with it and it grew bigger and bigger that there was a risk i would have exhausted#myself and not finished it at all which would have been way worse#i think actually taking 3 months to craft 15k chapters with many drafts makes me happier than churning out 4k in a week#that being said im so glad its finished and that- somehow- it did so much better than i would have ever dreamed <33#now i can go back and make it what i want it to be without the pressure of racing against my own stamina#and. if im really honest. i didnt think i would still be into avatar for this long lmao#i thought id lose the brainrot at around month three so i had to finish the fic before then#and yet. month 7 and i draw spider in my sketchbook every day. i think about him every spare minute.#the brainrot is still kicking and im happy#anyway here i go to dive back into that fic and add even more angst and whump and maybe another hug. if spider is lucky#i also want to write a little one shot about Ngaire properly taking care of spider after something bad happens#but idk if people wanna read OC stuff and its certainly not my comfort zone so i might keep it to myself#N E WAY this was the biggest and dumbest ramble to myself about my own fics lmao i should really shut up and just go write :’)
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I finally finished story missions in SRV today! I still need to build the last building and get all of the regions 100% though but it was a great time still.
#i cant say it was exactly smooth i had to restart the game regularly but i did it!#despite the bugs i can tell there was a lot of love put in this game#kinda funny finishing this while wearing the purple bathrobe i bought 10 years ago when i got rly into sr#aaaa little sad that my mental health is still where its at but hey Yuri's been with me this whole time and im still here#shoutout to megafreeman in the credits gg#also saw my employer company in there but we dotn talk about that they just bought too many qa firms (including mine lmao)
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Yeah guys my pc is cooked,,,, my plans of spending the new year's eve playing dsaf and dialtown are out the window 😞
Unless steam decides it magically wants to run dialtown on windows 7 and i magically make space to download at least one of the games. Please,,,,,,,, computer do a Christmas Miracle™
#text post#if anyone cares it's probably a physical problem with my computer tbh#it was first only freezing and crashing for an unknown reason but now it doesn't even turn on properly lmao#i followed a tutorial for the error it was giving me (select boot device or something like that) and I *think* i found the bigger problem#the tutorial said to change the “sata” thing option to something else but i straight up apparently don't have ANY cables connected there??#its a little hard to explain (i myself don't even know much lol I'm pretty much just making assumptions)#the first solution the tutorial gave me was changing the boot sequence to another option but I only have one option lol#and the other said to change the configuration and. im just repeating myself arent i#anyways im pretty sad that i probably won't be able to finish the drawing I was making for my friends :/#but im sure he'll get better eventually.. he did that same error before and all i did was wait and brush off a little of the dust inside it#and it went well.. im only a bit more worried NOW bc those solutions aren't working lmao#anyways i think im talking a little too much lol sorry#.... yes my grandma and everyone i know ARE tired of hearing me talk about my pc KSNSMSKSKEKKW
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i realised recently that i’m kinda done with the dorm life and it’s time to move out
#it gets tiring that every time you feel comfortable everyone moves out and a whole bunch of strangers move in#i’ve lived here for almost 5 years now and there’s been so many people in and out#i’ve also been joking with my friend about moving in together bc she need a new place to live from february#and i do have some inheritance from my grandparents that i can use for deposits and some rent so its just about finding a place#also my job now would allow me to pay more in rent#it’s gonna be sad to leave this place bc the rent is so cheap but i really feel like i’ve grown out of it and im ready to live on my own#but not fully on my own bc i do g want that lmao#i finish my degree in a little over a year so i’ll be forced to move soon enough anyways#even though that would be like march 2026#seems far off but time passes quickly#and it would maybe be nice to move before i start my thesis so i don’t have to stress about moving on top of that#anyways i hope my friend is serious? i looked at some apartments and did find some 3 rooms with a halfway decent rent#and if we are splitting it would be fine
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the cutie pie brainrot was bad enough I finally started s2 😭💕
#why are all these couples so good???????!!!#normally at least one is meh and i can kinda check out#but im so invested#rambles#im a little sad its 4 eps but ill take what i can get!#eeeeek i have to work but i just wanna finish lmao
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RAAA IM WORKING ON A NEW FIC AND I WANT TO POST IT BUT I WANT TO ACTUALLY FINISH IT BUT I'VE ALREADY WRITTEN 2 SHORT CHAPTERS AND ITS NOT EVEN THE MEAT AND POTATOES YET SO I DON'T KNOW WHEN/IF I'LL POST IT
#no himbos rn#my current followers probably won't be too interested in it either because I've never written for this before 😭#im writing a k.ili fic for the h.obbit btw 💀 that's what this is#and bc I can't write a normal fanfic to save my life the format is in letters to each other#at least at the beginning I think#it might change idk#bc Im really inspired by that like. running through a castle in a ballgown vibe.#but so I have like 2 500 word letters written already and IDK WHEN TO POST THEM OR IF I WILL EVEN FINISH THIS BECAUSE I WANT TO#but my ADHD HATES IT WHEN I WRITE LMAO#like all my headcanons for shadow are an anomaly to me LMAO I have no clue how I kept those up for so long#shadow just has that gorilla grip on my brain 😔 so sad /lh#but rn k.ili/TH are my hyperfixation and really don't want my biggest fic to be an undertale fic from 7th grade anymore 🤡#these tags got away from me#it doesnt help that its 3:33 AM LMAO#ok goodbye lmk if you guys want to read my silly little hobbit fic
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